(Source: vivianhoangnguyen, via csteezyyy)
They said that after you quit rhythmic gymnastics you always find yourself either:
A) missing the sport
B) wanting to go back
C) finding a way to go back into the sport
D) all of the above
And when all the girls told me this,I thought they were crazy as fuck. Why would you even want to go back into a sport that makes you constantly loose weight (even if you’re skinny), get weighed every week (or day like me), get judged by others, get yelled at by your coaches, get bruises and cuts from your coaches hitting you with a stick, get hurt from the competitor’s apparatus, constantly being put down, never being good enough, struggling to perfect everything, struggling to even move, waste your money, getting a bath in a tub full of ice, getting injured, competing with fractured ankles, getting surgery, etc. So why would you want to go back to gymnastics after going through all that?
Honestly from the answers above I would pick “D” - all of the above. I miss the sport, I want to go back, and sometimes I find myself trying to get back into the sport.
I really hate the practices and competitions because I’m never good enough and the coaches and judges hate me. So really who gives a shit? But I miss performing. I even miss traveling all over the US and I miss the flight attendants who would always yell at my team and I because we weren’t allowed to take our hoops on the plane. I miss the security and people at airports because they thought I was carrying a trampoline or a giant frisbee instead of my hoop. I miss staying at the nice hotel rooms, performing solo, being super flexible, pretending to be friends with my enemies, finding music, getting my own routine, staring into the judges eyes, having simple facials like smiling or being super sad, etc. yeah I kinda miss a lot of stuff…
So in a few weeks I’ll officially be a retired gymnast. I don’t even think I’m retired, more like a quitter. I want to go back to rhythmic gymnastics but it’s been about 6 months and it’s too late for me to go back because I’m not in shape, I’m not flexible anymore, and most of all…I’m scarred.
So after training at New Hope then moving to Gym-Max to do artistic gymnastics for 5 years and getting 2 broken elbows it brought me to EuroGymnastics to do rhythmic gymnastics for 5 years. And after those 10 years of hard training, getting fractured ankles, stressed fractures heels, almost fractured neck, broken pinkie, bad back, torn meniscus and torn tendon, getting knee surgery and preparing to go to the Olympics (which has always been my dream) it suddenly all gone. Because I am weak and I give up too easily… I really don’t know how to end this and I’m wasting my time ranting so I’m just going to stop here. I never thought I would say this but I miss rhythmic gymnastics….
You know when you start at one topic, and with not even knowing it, you’re on another. Where there are no awkward silences, trying to think of something to say. Just conversations filled with laughs and jokes. And a little bit of teasing. The ones that seem endless. Well, you hope it would be because of how nice it is.
Oh I miss this
(Source: danielbarao, via njlarnerd)
